Courage and Healing From My Guardian Angel

I have a gift of talking to the deceased and angels. I had a very hard time accepting this gift because my experiences with them has been so complex and dynamic.

I was told only witches and evil people talk to spirits, that those who were talking to me were demons in disguise,

Most of my religious peers accused me of dealing with demons.

They said, "Angels never test us or push us in any scary or challenging way, God wasn't getting rid of them because I wasn't holy or sincere enough."

I felt like Jacob wrestling with the angel, or like there was a thorn in my side. By shaming me, it only made my experiences harder and made me feel so much more alone and crazy.

The Angels would give me dreams visions and messages for others. I would be warned about things to help myself or others cope. They would lead me to money under the earth and snow when I struggled for food.

They were also constantly trying to help me heal from my shattered childhood; they wanted me to overcome the wounds I had by talking about them and bringing them to the light and constantly trying to heal me.

However, I wasn't ready or willing to accept my experiences I thought I had to be insane and cursed.

I thought maybe I was being duped, after all, my experiences with Angels was not typical of most peoples encounters. My familiar angels were generally kind, loving and caring, but my guardian angel was like a Sensei. He was very aggressive and would refuse to let me indulge in anything that deified the truth of my experiences in life and in the spirit.

Anything that was scary or I didn't want to accept in life, knowledge, or in the spiritual, he would bring up to my face and ask me to overcome it, to understand it and learn from it.

It was hard to understand him for a good part of my life, because I didn't like his method of sparking my spirit. It seemed like he was 'a-take-the-bull-by-the-horns' kinda of guy reminiscent of the God of war - Ares.

He would show so much love knowledge and compassion daily, but when he wanted to teach me something of great importance or to help me overcome fear, he would crack his metaphorical whip on me, and become very stern if I tried to ignore or push him away.

If I was afraid of something he would make sure it was made apparent to me and help me to face it head on.

Like a parent showing their child how to face the dark by taking them directly to the source.

He explained to me what fear does to a person if they give into it, and he didn't want that for me because that wasn't who I was meant to be - a fearful person.

Afterwards, I began to understand that he was trying to help me overcome my past wounds, and find my way back to who I was meant to be spiritually. He was so determined not to let me give into fear and apathy, which would lead to giving up on myself.

Finally, I have began to accept my gifts and interactions with angels especially my guardian angel. I have the courage forming inside me to brave any circumstance that seems scary, and fill it with hope love and dedication.

Now, I can fulfill my spiritual trek as it was intended. When they give me advice, I listen to what they have to say:)

I have some questions to add to this -what is everyone else's experience like with angels?
Have you had a different encounter then most? What was unique about it? if not what has yours been like? :)