(Montreal, Quebec, Canada)
My name is Diana, I started hearing voices at the age of 35 and I am now 38. At first I didn't understand so I was institutionalized, in and out of the Jewish General Hospital for the past three years.
They told me that is was not normal and I was diagnosed with depression, bipolar, schizophrenia, multiple personality disorder and lastly, borderline personality disorder. This was a combination of 40 doctors opinon of all ages over three years.
I try over 20 medications because they told me if I didn't, I would never leave the hospital and I got scared. Some medications made me loose my short term memory, others stopped me from thinking creatively or thinking at all. But the worst was xiprexia, I attempted suiacide twice because my voices became threatening oppose to informative and insithful, I also became paranoide, so they then told me that I have paranoide schizophrenia.
One good doctor told me that my mind functions faster than the average person and he does not know why, but he can slow it down with another pill.
I then decided to take a nursing course to learn more of human biology, specifically that of how the brain functions. To my dismay, they are teaching the same findings base on 150 years ago reaserch, so after 6 months I quit with 90% average. When I question my teacher on their teachings, she said that the program was provided by our government and she had no choice but to teach it.
Now, because of websites such as yours, I have accepted my voices as a gift and not a curse, but I lost my job, my friends and almost my family too. But even though I still have my family, some are now afraid of me and I can not speak freely about my voices, it hurts sometimes.