Ghosts Waking Me Up
I have had ghost "experiences" since I was very young.
I had an experience with a ghost or "incubus" through a lucid dream when I was 15 (now 45) it sounded like any demon you could think of, I felt breath on my neck, it spooned with me, and I actually enjoyed it (embarrassing to say. But, IT came as my boyfriend that had just died, and it told me, "I love you Midge" BY MY NAME!)
It literally scared me more than anything! BUT, I digress.
This last year, things first started with bad dreams,(a demon attacking me, mostly when I slept during the day. It was horrifying and felt so real. My friend helped me rid it with a Hamsa, evil eye, and a few other trinkets,) then "vibrating" in my body.
When I researched the vibrating, I could not do it to save my life.
But this strange talking, voices, not really to me, but I can hear them almost like a radio transmission. It is scary, and frustrating (especially when I open my eyes) and see swirls of faces, no color, dark, and I do not know them.
I close my eyes and they go away (in my mind anyway) or almost demonic at times entities appearing before my eyes if I focus at the dark.)
How do I hone in on this, or make it go away?
Oh, all of this started when I was "manifesting abundance and good health" and meditating. I know my family thinks I am crazy (except my brother, who has also had these experiences, to which I felt guilty because I did not believe him til it actually started happening to me.)
Please help me understand this. Are they bad? Why is this happening to me?
Thank you for letting me write about this. I would like to figure out how to not fear these experiences, and actually be able to sleep through the night without medication.