Hearing Angels Singing

by Calen
(USA)

I have this case of Tinnitus where when things get too quiet around the house, my mind would emit phantom sounds that only I can hear, all are high pitch noises, sometimes excruciatingly loud. I've always believed if I concentrate on raising the pitch to the highest it could be and stayed real still, my soul would separate from my body in something called OBE (Out of Body Experiences).

I'm sure some of you have had an OBE before. My dad has before he came to Christ when he meditated too deeply, and I think my mom has, but she was a little vague on her story. Something about her falling asleep then floating up. She said she couldn't see a thing while my dad saw his own body.

Tinnitis has always been a problem ever since I can remember, and I learned that most people who have hearing loss have this condition as well. Before I researched what it was, I used to be terrified of it. It would start out as a faint, high pitch, slowly maximizing in volume, and I would freeze in fear because I didn't know what it was or where it came from...

Along came singing voices as if my Tinnitus wasn't enough for my hearing-starved brain, often female, occasionally male, and mostly both genders singing. I've heard this chorus singing from time to time in my mind starting about 8th or 9th grade. I am a sophomore in high school and a believer in God. My whole family are hardcore Christians. No one but me is able to hear unearthly, beautiful music.

Seriously, I wonder if God allows angels to sing to me (it does raise my spirits, and I often think of God) because if it's just my imagination, then that brings up another question.

How in the world am I able to hear the most incredible voices in harmony in my mind that sends shivers down my spine because of the beauty?

I swear I've never heard any living human on this Earth sing as gorgeously (and awing?) as what these angels sing in my mind. Usually, I can't tell what they're singing.

It's all wordless if I'm not controlling what they're singing and if they're doing what they want on their own will. Sometimes I would "conduct" or control their songs. It only works with Christian songs, though. One of the songs they often sing for me because I control their voices is Hallelujah.

"King of kings,
and Lord of lords,
King of kings,
and Lord of lords,
And Lord of lords,
And He shall reign,
And He shall reign forever and ever,
King of kings,
forever and ever,
And Lord of lords,
Hallelujah! Hallelujah!"

Yeah... that's pretty much it. And I know this is irrelevant to the topic, but almost every time I'm in the shower I have a conversation with God and to cleanse me of my sins and what I can do to become more pleasing in God's sight.

One time I came out of the shower with determination set in my eyes. I marched up to my mom and told her we would not be celebrating pagan holidays anymore because God said so. No more Halloween, no Easter bunnies (Easter is for the celebration of Jesus risen from the dead), and no more Santa Claus (Jesus' birthday is on Christmas).