Hearing Voices Hurts
I have been hearing voices for almost six years now. They have completely slowed down (not stopped :) my life progress.
Before the auditory, I was able to take on loads of stress and move onward and upward. Now, I am finding it difficult to just get up in the morning, because the voices begin. Mine also started with a voice saying "Can you hear us?"
The voice takes on a person who I dated for less than two weeks many years ago. The guy worked in security, so the voices keep saying that they are him and that the FBI is following me. lol. It sounds so real.
I don't know if it's an illness, I don't know if it's spiritual. I've had medicine and spiritual treatments. The medicine I was put on in the psych ward (2-3 meds) did not stop the voices.
After the hospital stay, I had an exorcism (by family because if you are considered "mentally ill" or have been in a mental hospital, no priest will perform on you). It was a whole lot of screaming and demonic things that were trying to hang on to me.
I was so scared and wondering, am I evil or possessed by demons? After that exorcism, I became super spiritual, lighting candles, reading scriptures, facing pebbles toward the direction of the sun, drawing crosses on the wall, some of it didn't make sense, but did at the time.
I am so sad. My siblings are moving forward doing great things with their lives and I have to wake up to 6 or 7 voices that sound like some jerk I dated for less than 2 weeks.
Do any of you have similar experiences?
Please pray for me, as prayer changes things!! I'm a believer.