Is He My Twin Flame? How Do I Get Him Back?
I will try to keep this short.
Eighteen years ago, I was with a friend and we were walking on campus. I saw this guy. I stopped dead in my tracks and said, "Oh my gosh, who is that guy?"
My friend told me his name. My response was, "That is who I am going to spend the rest of my life with!"
My friend called the guy over and the 3 of us decided to go hang out the rest of the afternoon. After that, this guy would come over to my house and hang out. We never 'dated' but were very close friends - friends with benefits.
I wanted a relationship with him, but was afraid he wouldn't so I never pursued that. After about 6-8 months, we were put into a situation that I had to let him go. I knew he didn't want a relationship and I did. So I prayed and asked for strength to let him go. I felt if he loved me, truly loved me, he would be back one day.
I remember saying the words aloud to myself. I remember saying, "It could be 20 years from now, but I know he will be back."
Well, flash forward 15 years...one day, I received an email. I didn't recognize the address, but something told me I needed to read it right away. When I opened it up, I saw who it was from. It was from that guy - from 15 years ago!
I was so excited! I immediately knew he loved me and we were going to be together forever. In his email, he said he was so excited to find me. He had always thought about me and missed me. He said that I was the
most influential person in his life. We spoke for about a week via email, and then we both said that we loved each other, we always had and that we think we are soul mates.
I moved to the town he lived in. In going through my boxes, I found my baby box. On the outside of it, was his name. I called my mom to find out why that name was on my baby box. She said if I was a boy, that is what my name would have been. Also, inside of the box, was the local newspaper. On the front page, was a picture of trees and a local landmark. The property in the picture belongs to this guy's family. We were both blown away by this and just reconfirmed the fact that we were meant for each other - we both felt this.
Now, 2 years later, he has left. I am devastated. I feel like I have lost my other half. I feel like we are meant to be. I am severely depressed. When I get really down, something inside me says not too, that our relationship isn't over, that he will be back, oneday.
I know I have to move on and become a better person through all this, but in my heart and head I keep feeling this isn't the end with him. I feel like we were meant to be together. I feel like we were made for each other.
It has been a little over 18 years ago that I first saw him. From that moment on, I have felt like he was my soul mate - my twin flame. It was instant and that feeling has never left.
Am I looney, or are my feelings accurate?