Love Acension Problems
(Chicago, IL. US)
I hear voices in my head that I know aren't mine. I don't know if I should take an anti-anxiety med such as Klonopin, or Adderall.
A couple months ago, I started thinking and remembering a friend, a really close friend, who is a girl and I'm a girl. We stopped talking for half a year. I typed up a couple of pages once or twice on the computer why I loved her and wrote all the romantic things I could think of about her. This was when I wasn't on the Klonopin or the Adderall.
Anyways shortly after I wrote these love letters so to speak I became friends with her again. I guess the voices showed me what love is. She had a boyfriend, but chose to hang out with me instead of him. We both were doing drugs and got into some legal trouble for stealing clothing.
She is in jail now and I am in such a depression because I miss her. I'm not concerned with the fact that I might be gay or bi-sexual, but why do I have to cry everyday or have sleepless nights?
I don't know who my spirit guides are, I don't know what kinds of questions to ask them. I don't know if they are telling me the truth. They say they love me and that I know them. I didn't even know if they were aliens ghosts or actual people who are living now.
Is it possible to talk to the people you love who are
alive and living?
All I keep saying and thinking now that she's not in my daily life is that I want to go home. I don't want to be here anymore. I want to get out of here. I don't know my purpose. I'm very lonely and now have no friends. I can't keep up with the act in being pleasant and happy. I don't want to work. I can't concentrate. I don't want to do anything. I've asked them to help me, to send me somone to help me because I can't do it anymore.
I see a shrink, but the meds give me bad dreams and don't help with my depression or voices. It all seems like a bunch of b.s. to me.
I deleted my love letters, paranoid someone would see them. I just want this to be over with and I don't know what to do. Some nights when I was not on the klonopin and the adderall they would keep me up all night and talk to me, but I don't remember any of the conversations.
Is it possible to talk to living people in your head?
I just think most of the time the voices are messing with me. I have no one to talk to about it and it's been weeks since I've laughed or felt love. Please help.
My name is Kristin and I'm 23. It's been 5 years now since I started hearing these voices after my first acid trip. I've been through a lot and nobody understands. Please help.