My Twin Flame Separation Story
My T.F. story is now 17 years old.
We met 17 years ago and were introduced by the person who is now my husband and one of my helper soul mates.
At the time my soul mate and I had been living together for about 2 years but were not married.
My T.F. is 8 years younger than I. In our first encounter I happened to stand next to him, say something about work and my T.F. responded very rudely. I couldn't figure out what I had said to make him so mad.
I never noticed anything special about him in fact I thought he was an asshole for being so rude when we had not really even met. One day he touched me during a class and that was it! I knew from one touch that I recognized his energy immediately.
Very quickly after that I become very enamored with him and couldn't think of anything else. I felt like I knew him and he was my lover. I felt like I was cheating on him with my boyfriend.
I felt like I belonged with him but he gave no outward signs that anything was going on.
I thought I was going crazy. I wanted to be with him so badly that I would cry myself to sleep at night and my body would just ache because we weren't together. I couldn't figure out what or why this was happening.I had never had this sort of a reaction to anyone ever in my life! I felt very guilty because I wanted to be with a stranger over my boyfriend.
Needless to say, I tried all that I could to get us together but he always rejected me, would leave the room as I entered, was extremely rude and I could even start to feel hatred radiating off of him. It seemed like he countered everything I did like he could read my mind. I couldn't understand why he didn't recognize me or my energy and I didn't have anyone to talk to about my situation.
I would dream about him on a regular basis but in my dreams I could never catch up with him. I'd see him going around a corner. For several years he even refused to call me by name.
Finally, after 2 years of wondering if I was crazy, I told my boyfriend that I wanted to break up. Although my T.F. and I never had more than a 5
minute conversation I wanted to be free and was hoping that if was single he might come around.
No such hope! I had my 5 minute conversation where I told him that I had broken up with my boyfriend and was interested in getting to know him better if he was interested. He told me unequivocally No! he was NOT! interested.
I said okay but we both stayed on in class together for 4 more years. We were around each other for 6 years total.
I tried to change to be more what I thought he'd be attracted to but everything I did made him hate me more. One morning before class he came to me in a dream. He showed me 2 wedding bands. He put one on and held the other in his open hand. Then he turned and walked away. I KNEW he had gotten married.
That morning when I saw him, he was wearing a wedding band. He left the class after that and I have not seen him since. Meeting him however, has changed my entire life. I was so distraught, and I couldn't and wouldn't talk about it to anyone because they'd just laugh and think I was crazy.
I ended up quitting my long time job, had a nervous breakdown, started taking depression and anxiety medications, drifting from job to job, asking and pleading with my husband to divorce me (which lucky for me he didn't)). I started vomiting and having terrible stomach pains about 2 years later and eventually found out I had stomach cancer.
I had to undergo a radical surgery because I was at Stage 4 level but I'm beating it! I have since gone back to school (while I had cancer because I just though I was sick), changed professions, and am in the process of curing my cancer.
I believe my almost unbearable grief caused it to steer me where I had to go. I have found my path so my cancer isn't needed anymore. It's done it's job and I'm in pretty good shape physically and getting better all the time. This path has been the single most incredibly painful life lesson I have ever had to learn.
I don't know if I'll ever see him again but I wish him the best because if we don't individually raise our own consciousness and become all we can possibly be, we won't have a chance to finally be together and accomplish our original goal .