Mysterious Man In My Dreams
I'm 21 and I've been seeing this person in my dreams since I was a teenager.
This person is lean, tall, has pale skin and dark shiny hair. I never saw his face. He makes me very comfortable and I feel loved. I also feel an eternity of connection with him; we talk telepathically and he always protected me from spiritual harm (I get touched by spirits, I got initiated into 1st level Reiki to protect myself).
Around him I'm very calm and happy. The dreams are pretty weird because they feel like they are from another plane or time. I've lived and grown with him in my dreams; he was with me as a child. As a girl we got married and I was even pregnant, but the child was unborn because whenever I had dreams of being pregnant it ended in miscarriage.
When I got a boyfriend, he visited my dreams less and less and I felt very lonely. I don't see him anymore, but i miss him terribly so I broke up to get him back...but he seems to be gone now i don't feel his warm presence anymore. I feel hollow inside...
I don't know what to do, who was he, was he good or bad is it right to want him to be back?