When my Dad died suddenly (he was shot by bandits when we were still in college), I was so devastated.
During his wake, almost all our friends were around us, but I felt so alone and it seemed to me that everything around me was so dark. At home after his burial, I was listening to the song "Somewhere in Time" until I remembered that I didn't have a father anymore and had long wanted to have God as my own father. So I told God in my mind, "How is that, Lord, I don't have a Daddy anymore? Can you be my Daddy?"
I was so dumbstruck when all of a sudden, I heard a very very clear male voice say in my mind, "I already am."
Immediately, my soul seemed to spiral up to heaven with so much joy my heart felt like it would burst!
Then many years later, on my way home from work, I had so many things on my mind as usual when all of a sudden, I again heard a voice in my head say, "This is not your home."
During that time, I was talking to my guardian angel a lot and so many synchronicities were happening in my life. But one time, I suddenly wondered if it's bad that I'm talking almost all the time with my guardian angel and no longer with God. After that, I never heard voices again.
Now, I want so much to hear God and my angel again but I can't! I'm trying to meditate but I can't quiet my mind.
What can help me?