Pendulum Accuracy

Hi,

My boyfriend broke up with me six months ago.

I've seen your responses to others that the pendulum can't predict the future and to ask if you will get back with someone means you won't get a true answer.

I went to a medium who told me that he was my soul mate and we would get back together, he just needed time. The month she gave me that he would contact me has long passed however and I just lost faith in everything.

A friend then gave me a crystal pendulum and I tried it out one night when I was particularly lonely and couldn't sleep. I was a little shocked when it worked, and cynical that I was somehow doing it without realizing. After all that has happened, I didn't believe it was true.

But in the week that followed, a persistent question, unrelated to me about a competition, kept coming into my head. I kept brushing it away thinking it was stupid and trivial, but it persisted so I finally asked the question of the pendulum the night before this competition was due to take place. The question was pretty much related to who would win and I had a thought in my head as to who it would be and thought that the pendulum would swing that way because I was thinking it. But it didn't, it swung for someone else...and that person won.

I admit to being pretty gobsmacked and now I'm not even sure what to believe. Asking this question was unimportant to me (and I felt really stupid while doing it), but I felt like something was pushing me to ask in order to prove that the pendulum worked - told the truth. Is it possible for something like this to happen?

The reason I ask is because the pendulum told me I would get back with my ex. I'm afraid to believe it even though I want to. I've spent the past six months working on myself and doing all sorts of exciting new things (including going back to college). My life is taking a whole new direction and I feel like I have learned something about myself from the breakup. But I still miss him, terribly. There's a horrible hollow, cold feeling inside me like a part of me is missing and I'm never fully happy, he's always there. No matter how hard I try, I can't forget him.

I hate that I feel this way because even though I've suffered a great deal of heartbreak in the past, something about this feels different or wrong somehow. My gut keeps telling me this guy is the one and I don't even believe in that rubbish, and I'm annoyed at myself for feeling this way. I want to believe in the pendulum or something, but I don't have the faith.

Life has not been kind and I have zero faith in the universe (or whatever it is) delivering what is best for us (so please don't ask me to). Part of me does want to believe but mostly I just think its all a pile of c*** and that the universe never delivers anything good.

My question is, is it possible that this pendulum (or whatever it is) deliberately showed me the future to give me some level of faith back? And if that's the case, then is it possible that it is telling me the truth about my ex?

The last few years have been exceptionally hard, filled with loss and pain and I've gone from being a spiritual person to being bitter and cynical. I'm just wondering if this is the universe's way of telling me things will work out?

Because truthfully, this little bit of faith or hope that I've got from the pendulum is very, very fragile and if that gets shattered then I really am done believing in anything, so I feel like it would be very counterproductive (and sadistic) of the universe to have done this.

Please forgive my long question. I'm just looking for answers to something I don't understand.