Possible Twin Flame: The Roller Coaster
I'm wondering if anyone has heard of bona fide twin flames who did not have a love at first sight experience?
I have known someone for 25 years and although the attraction has always been there we didn't get involved until six years ago. Then we separated and a year ago I started to have what would be called symptoms of a twin flame connection with him.
I felt euphoric just thinking about him. I have had dreams about him for years. I felt a surge of creativity I've never experienced in my life. I felt like I wanted to be a better person and help people.
We were friends but there was other chemistry there. And then for some reason he got upset and stopped talking to me.
The pain was so intense I couldn't believe it. I felt like someone stabbed me in the heart. From that day it was like a door opened and no matter what I do I can't close it. I'm lucky to go two hours without thinking about him.
I swear it's like he's talking to me all the time. And I talk to him all the time. We have entire conversations and I feel like I'm going nuts.
I have done many rituals, meditations, and I have prayed many times to make this stop. I feel like I have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD).
I finally got him to talk to me. I thought I would feel better. We sort of touched on the telepathy. Like I knew exactly what time of day he takes lunch even though it's not a usual lunch time.
I go from having these moments of full on awesome spiritual joy to moments of agony. I don't even know why. I just get so sick of him in my head 24/7. I know we can be together as a couple in this lifetime. It's just not possible. But sometimes I just feel like I can't stand having this mental spiritual connection, but not being able to talk about it with him.
I feel like I'm going crazy and maybe I need medication.