Recovery from Recent Deaths

Recovery from the recent deaths of my mother , sister and partner was overwhelming and painful.

Furthermore, losing them left me feeling empty and totally alone.

It was as if I had an enormous cavity in the middle of my chest...I had no reason for living and I wanted to join my loved ones on the other side.

There were days when I remained in my PJ’s, not aware of where I was nor what I was doing, and was often outside wandering around in my garden.

Hearing their voices (my mother, sister and partner Wally) daily plus the voice of my guide Matoowah was comforting and helped me get through the days. Wally would often remind me of things I needed to do, or could do. His sense of humor kept me going.

At night I was with them in my dreams, but often during my waking hours, the harsh reality of being all alone struck hard.

At that time, thankfully I had the comfort of my animals - my two Aussies Marlo and Bandit, Pochi the cat, and Charlie the budgie who all seemed to have one single purpose - to help me through the days. They were mourning too. All four of us would cocoon in bed giving each other strength. My animals helped me tremendously through my mourning.

There was also my good friend and mentor Fran with whom I spent hours on the phone. She was my life line. You may be surprised who your true friends are during a time of crises and mourning

How did I cope with losing three people whom I loved the most? I went through it moment by moment …sometimes just concentrating on my breathing, then hour by hour, then finally day by day. There were times when my breathing reminded me that I was still alive. Until finally, one day, I was able to see sunshine at the end of the long dark tunnel.

There was a period when the Oprah and Dr. Phil shows helped to get me through the days.

The tragic loss of recent deaths , especially of your loved ones, leads you to question the reasons for your existence - the meaning of life, your life. And this type of self questioning is the beginning of spiritual consciousness or spiritual awareness, or whatever you want to call it.

In my case, spiritual consciousness occurred after the loss of my loved ones.

Unbeknownst to me at the time, as I was experiencing my healing transformation, the seeds were germinating for my first book.

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