I started writing my spiritual journal after the deaths of my mother, sister and partner. It was my form of therapy. It kept me sane, and it is how my healing began.
At the time, I wandered around my home in a trance. My partner passed three months after my sister's death. I can't recall the specifics of each day, except writing in my journal. It was my life line.
You can find out more about their deaths at
recent deaths.
It was my method of keeping track of daily experiences - my overwhelming emotions and the voices in my head. And, it helped to keep my sanity in tact.
During that time, my main spirit guide, Matoowah, introduced herself to me, and from then on I started channeling her words. I also kept track of my conversations with my loved ones. I needed to write...to distract me from my pain...it gave me some satisfaction to read the words.
At first, I typed mechanically without mentally processing what I heard. After a few days, I willingly took part in our conversations and started asking many questions.
I was curious about Matoowah's life as a guide, and wanted to know how she was associated with me.
Conversations with My Loved Ones
My loved ones' experiences of death was also very important to me. I loved hearing their voices and their own words describing their experiences. I write about this in my book at great length.
My sister passed on December 23rd and then my partner on March 19th, three months later. At the time, I still had not mourned my mother's death. Read how I coped with her death in
death of a parent
which happened six years earlier.
It took me a long time to face the pain and suffering of the loss of my mother. I was not aware that I was carrying the pain within me all that time. Throughout all of this, I lost my beloved pet Baggins. You can read how I coped with losing her at
pet death.
My spiritual journal helped to keep my depression at bay; it also soothed my sense of loneliness.
On the other hand, something wonderful happened - my morning journal led to my
spiritual and personal growth
meeting my other guides, and eventually to my first book.
Matoowah kept reminding me that I was not alone. She told me that I had many who were concerned about me (in the spiritual realm) and who loved me. She was right, but it took time for me to grasp that concept.
It was also Matoowah who encouraged me to keep writing and to organize all my pages into a book that would help others with their grief. She was my mentor throughout the whole process.
Even though I could hear their voices, I missed my mother, sister and partner tremendously. Being able to hear their voices was like a soothing balm for my soul...eventually leading to my spiritual growth.
Besides keeping a spiritual journal for my healing, I meditated.
If you want to read about keeping a spiritual journal, Amazon.com has many interesting books. You can also find interesting books on spiritual healing.
Perhaps you need to do some pampering for yourself. Here are some ideas to consider:
a Writing Retreat If you would like to take a writing holiday or perhaps
