To All Twin Flames
by Pure Deep Light
Dear Twin Flames,
I have to share my thoughts with you, it is good not to be alone. This emotional roller-coaster kills me and would be happy to talk to all of you.
I met my Twin Flame man on the NET a bit more than two years ago on his birthday which is on the 11th day of that month under not ordinary circumstances.
I am married with 2 kids and we are in our 40's. He is younger by 7 years. I like my husband and family, but do not feel love for my husband. I felt all my life lonely and lost, even though I was always surrounded until we found each other.
He was promising to meet me personally for one and a half a year. We are both in Europe, but he is oversees so the distance is big but not huge - a 3 hours flight. He promised to come to me and I am not sure if he really wants it or not. This is why I do not go to him. I have never run after any guys - never needed to because I am pretty and look younger than my real age.
But, nowadays I keep trying to put us and our connection together - it hurts a lot.
I do not know what to do? We argue weekly about small things. But I can't let him go...I would go insane of the pain.
When he is silent even for days it makes me mad. I cannot talk to anyone around me about my feelings. When we are in a good cycle, everything is so good, when its bad, it is horrible.
He is always on my mind - even when with family I think they can feel my mood changes too, because I cannot hide it completely.
I have never had this feeling for anyone, but it is very hard to live with it. He says that he loves me and is thinking of me all the time, and that he does not want to lose me, but he keeps a gap between us and does not let me get closer to him. I do not understand why?
Is it because he needs space to grow? Or both of us need it?
Sometimes I have a feeling that he punishes me because of his feelings for me. I think my character has improved a lot during our time together - I have become more patient for sure...I don't know how you can survive this.
I keep trying to do so. I do not want to lose him. How can you live without your Twin Flame at all?
I hope he will come back to me and your twins will come back to You ALL!
I am trying to SHINE!
PURE LOVE TO YOU ALL