Twin Flame Separation Pain
by Lost Soul
I met my Twin Flame under unusual circumstances almost a year ago today.
It was a new job for both of us, one we can’t even explain how we accepted. From the moment I met him, he is 14 years my junior, I felt that I knew him from a previous life, and even said that to him. He just replied that he heard he was an old soul.
The next few months after meeting him my life seemed to unravel, the connection between us was so intense, and within 4 months after meeting him I was deeply in love, which was so strange considering I gave up on love many years ago. It felt like an obsession, my soul would ache when he wasn’t around; I believed I had gone insane.
We spent our days together at work and got along extremely well. I even found myself thinking he was exactly like me, just at an earlier period of my life.
Then we were sent on separate assignments 7 months ago and that’s when the pain set in. We both missed each other so much. For me it felt as if I had lost a part of me. We attempted to start a relationship, but he ran before it could begin.
Then after a month of working apart, we were put together again I the same location, this time the intensity was stronger, he ran again, but remained in daily contact with me during work, via Skype. He even avoided seeing me in the office which broke my heart as I don’t know what I did wrong.
Three months ago I was reassigned and lo and behold he soon was sent to work with me 2 months ago, as my partner, just the two of us, all alone.
We spent the entire time realizing how perfect we were for each other, talking, listening to music while we worked, and going out for lunches. It was like we were dating.
After a month, one thing led to another. We spent so many days and hours just holding each other and connecting on a spiritual level, it was so beautiful. We even pledge a song, and would dance to it almost daily. As we got closer, he became scared again and found a job at another company.
During the last two weeks he would waiver between how much he wants to be with me and how happy we are going to be when we finally get together, to the next day telling me to move on. It was a rough time, as I feared being apart from him yet again. He promised we would talk each day and we would see each other, then the next day he
would say it’s over.
I felt like this roller coaster ride would never end. My emotions are a wreck from all the intense joy along with intense sorrow. When I am with him it’s euphoric, we just look into each other’s eyes and he looks at me as if he is communicating with my soul. Words cannot explain the emotions and energies that flow between the two of us.
He said he was leaving the job as he had to get away from me as strange things were happening. It appears he had the ability to read my mind, since he met me, and he said it was getting stronger. I tested him, and yes he was reading my thoughts.
He also said he never recalled dreaming before and now all he dreams about is me and it scares him, because one of his recurring dreams is that we have a baby, which doesn’t fit in his current life plan.
He has been gone now for 1 week and has decided not to make contact with me. I texted him to see how he was doing at his new job and he replied that he feels we need time apart, as he doesn’t want to hurt me anymore.
The pain of being apart from him, even for one day, is so intense. It feels as if someone died, like my soul is being ripped apart. I have been suffering this way for the last 7 months as he pulled me in and pushed me away.
About 6 mos ago, I went to visit a spiritual counselor/psychic, something I have never done before and she told me that I met my twin flame, and when she did a card reading, the twin flame card appeared as well. I have visited her a few times throughout this ordeal for support and counseling as whom else can I tell this crazy stuff about. The twin flame card appeared again, which she said was rare.
She tells me that he is sacred of this intensity as he doesn’t know what is going on, and that he will be back once he sorts it all out. She told me to be there for him and visualize us together and send him love into the universe. She said we were on track to where we need to be and just let go and let it flow.
I am having the hardest time letting go, as the pain and sorrow is so strong and deep. I just want the pain to stop. I tried everything, keeping myself busy, etc. and nothing is working.
If anyone has any experience with dealing with the pain and sorrow of being apart from their twin, please let me know.