When Will She Go?

by Anonymous
(UK)

I can hear her, everything I do, everywhere I go, she’s there. Always with me, never is she gone.
I can’t remember the last time I felt alone or that nobody was watching me, I know she always is.

When will she go? When will she leave me alone? I ask myself everyday.

Sometimes I hear a whisper sometimes I hear a shout. Sometimes I hear rustling sometimes I hear humming and beeping. I once heard her giggling.

Am I being haunted? Am I possessed? Am I going absolutely mental?

Nobody knows how I feel, nobody knows what to say, nobody knows how to help me. I guess I’m stuck with it forever.

I once turned the light off by accident when I was in the bathroom, and I rushed straight to the door to open it and as I turned around, I saw her. I know it was her, I only caught a glimpse though. All I remember was a pale shadow of what I recall was an old lady. I know she had grey hair and grey, old, ragged skin and a white long dress. She was reaching out for me with her hands, but I dived out of the bathroom and jumped straight into bed.

There I lay, crying for hours and hours. I cried myself to sleep that night, wondering if she was there with me. As I was dropping off to sleep, I heard "******?(my name)" it was a woman’s voice, it sounded as if she were feeling very poorly and sad, or maybe even crying.

Every time I stare and blur my eyes, I see a shape of the outline of her body. I told my parents, teachers and doctors, but they all think it is psychological.

How can it be all in my head if I’m hearing the voice from all different directions and I’m seeing shapes, outlines and shadows of this lady? I don’t understand.

I don’t know when this all started. Maybe it was when I started to go crazy on boxing day 2009?

I honestly don’t know what to do, who I can talk to. If anybody can help me or if anybody feels the same way as I do, am I alone?

Are there more people like me?